Such a weekend I’ve had.
I came away feeling very rejected over the past few days. Each thing, if it was an isolated incident, would not be much. But having them all in such a short time span, really doesn’t do much for Mugsy’s ego, lemme tell ya.
One incident I can’t give too many details about, as some of you might know who I’m talking about. Let’s just leave it at as a female friend of mine who I *thought* I might be interested in…well, no longer, for sure. She basically seemed like spending ANY time with me this weekend was a trial. Which doesn’t make me feel good.
Second incident occured at the techno party last night. A certain young lady who is about as insane as they come was acting in her normal way towards me (which is act REALLY interested when I’m not, but disappear as soon as I show any kind of interest.). Earlier in the evening I really wasn’t talking to her much, just sort of making polite conversation. Which seemed to make her want to grind her ass on me. But later, if I would go over and talk to her, she’d walk away 30 seconds later. In retrospect, I actually find it humorous. But at the time, caused me to feel very rejected.
Finally, there’s a girl who we will call S, just because using pronouns is hard. S is someone I’ve been crushing on pretty hard for a while. And I thought she might be interested as well. Although recently she told me that she was not going to date for a while, and also implied that I might be more attractive if I lost weight (which is probably true). Anyway, I got to see her hanging all over another guy this weekend. And if I flirted with her at all, she just seemed “tolerant”. Again, it made me feel really shitty. And I don’t know what to do about it besides pout.
It would be nice if girls who weren’t dating someone or married would flirt with me and not act like I am either a) asexual or b) completely unappealing. I have lots of girls flirting with me. But they’re all taken.
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