Ahh….a re-run of the “why do I do things that make me feel bad about myself?” topic.
I’m still on that stupid Internet dating site. I have no idea why. The only person I ever met from there turned out to be chock full o’ issues (of course, I’ve met many girls through other means who are chock full o’ issues too, but I digress).
Anyway, on this site, when you send someone a message, it tells you if they’ve read it, deleted it, etc.
It doesn’t make you feel too good to read the words: “She deleted without answering your letter.” Kind of a virtual kick to the stomach.
What’s primarily annoying is that in this instance, I was just being friendly. I’m not some stalker-riffice creep who emails every cute girl on the site in hopes of getting laid. I sent this girl a message because she’s going to grad school for theatrical direction, and she sounded vaguely interesting. I said as much in my message (not the “vaguely interesting” part, but that it would be nice to have someone else to chat with about directing). So not only am I unattractive or uninteresting, but apparently beneath her notice artistically. And she doesn’t even know me.
Rationally, I know this shouldn’t bother me. Regardless, those words “deleted without answering” never fail to make me feel pretty shitty.
I guess I’m glad I don’t send many messages on that site.
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